On Life's Disappointments

In recent past, I was chasing a job opportunity.

Although I’m very limited in my commitment to any kind of career goals, I still respond to job advertisements that interest me; purely to give myself a chance. I have learned that in life, you cannot wait for opportunities to come WHEN you’re ready. You GET ready when they come!

But unlike most times, where my resume doesn’t make it past the recruiter’s inbox, I actually landed an interview! I made it through not 1 but 3 interviews and for those few weeks getting this job became the most ESSENTIAL thing in my life.

I started creating plans around ‘to be’ work hours. I started using ‘when I’ll be at work’ phrase while bickering with husband. I even began browsing for ‘work wear’ in my current size. (L please😭)

But I’m a person of faith and it compels me to always look at the bigger picture.

So while I went around already employed in my head, I continued to PRAY!

Allah Tallah I WANT THIS JOB!!! 💪🏻
Sorry. I mean GIVE ME this job!!!! 🙏
No. I mean give me this job IF it’s good for ME.🤲🏻
And my kids. ✌🏻
And my husband.🤘🏻
And my family life. ✊🏻
And life in general.👌🏻
And of course afterlife.🙌🏻

And so after all the excitement, expectation and anticipation, I finally got the call!!

I didn’t make it.

👎🏼

My brain took a couple of seconds as the news sunk in. Fully expecting my heart to drown in disappointment, I waited ............but.........nothing?!! It was as if all the desire left my heart as soon as the bubble burst.

*POP* brain!
*POOF* heart?

If I know my brain (and believe me, I do) it was confused. Here it’s been dealing with a person who plummeted in pity, went in despair, wallowed and winged just last week because the ice cream place had run out of her favourite coconut flavour 🙈

But it’s strange how matters of faith work. How the heart gains strength beyond its normal capacity. When you entrust HIM with your affairs, HE takes care of you. Even if you have the emotional range of a 2 year old. 💁🏻‍♀️

This weekend, we tried a new ice cream place. Not only did they have my flavour but also the option of adding a bar of chocolate to it. So here’s me sitting with my Coconut ice cream smothered and squished with lots and lots of Bounty!!
(if you can’t see it it’s because it’s all hidden inside, waiting to be discovered 🤤)

“Such is the Bounty of Allah, which He bestows on whom He will: and Allah is the Lord of the highest bounty” (62:4)

Oh yeah 🙌🏻